I realize leaving our church would seem the right thing to do given we have children. We have enough children that we cannot be in all their classes. However, we can be involved with the ones that are younger while training the older ones in discernment. We have decided to not have our children in the midweek ministries and are thinking of dropping out of small group or switching groups. We are likely to have our children attend a bible based local ministry during the week in a church closer to home. They already know some of the children, and it may help ease transitions later.
Staying in the church has allowed us to talk to a few people. I believe I have shared my concerns with only four women. One woman and her husband have decided to move their family out of our church, they just do not have time to fight a battle. One woman is being careful and sees some problems but trusts the leadership so much she and her husband won’t see the big picture (you have to believe the new age movement is out there and is wrong before you can realize your church is entering into it), one woman is sticking it out coming from Pagitt’s church in the past. Her goal is to try to be a positive influence within our church, she knows full well where it’s all headed and plans to keep her hands in the church so she can keep presenting the gospel to the people she’s come to love. Another woman is dealing with so much in her life she can only handle so much of what I’ve shared with her. She and her husband believe what is happening is bad in many ways, but also don’t want to “throw the baby out with the bathwater.” At first they were in denial (just as I had been at first). Now, the wife is coming to see much of what I see. She speaks to her friends in church without mentioning me. She shares the concerns I have shown her, but only if she personally is concerned. One of her friends works closely with leadership, so she’s been injecting questions and is actually hearing rumbles that discussions on some of the authors and outside pastors have been happening. My husband has questioned two elders, and who knows if that has given them some pause to think.
So, staying and discussing with others has so far caused people we shared with to pay attention, and a few are openly expressing concerns to others within the church. If I started excitedly sharing all my concerns to everyone, which is what I wanted to do in the first place, no one would have listened and I would have been labeled as the problem. As it stands, people are thinking and questioning and talking. This has gotten my set of concerns farther than I could have alone. One of my friends plans of speaking to a pastor soon, and this will help me gauge the heart of this man. He is the one that seems the most reasonable, and also will tell my friend honestly if he sees anything she’s concerned about going on whether he thinks it’s a problem personally or not.
It’s taken years to move this ship, it’ll take years to move it back (or maybe even move it into a better direction). What’s hard is knowing if we need to just leave, and when.