Okay, we’re a church looking at “emergent youth” today. Wonder what the focus will be tomorrow. We just went through a series in Jude, and I noticed much talk was given to “scoffers” and those who we should watch out for. I just wonder why we’re doing this. It’s true, we do need to contend for the faith, but I find it ironic that’s our series topic when I feel I’m observing something I personally need to contend for. And what’s with the idea of corporate church deciding what’s false or true, and one individual coming up with problems is “bible police?” I worry this whole series is to set up the church people to be afraid to express their concerns. I fear any thing I say will be seen as “spreading rumors” which is the biggest sin in a church that wants to control everyone.
I go through feelings though of fear or doubt. What if I’m reading paranoid people’s information and our church is really not going in a bad direction. However, the things I’ve read fit with the things I’m seeing in reality. Also, I’m noticing the pastor seems to be interpreting things ever so slightly different than I’ve heard, and in my heart I know he’s off just a little bit. It’s the “did he really mean it that way” feeling all the time. Well, I believe he did REALLY mean what he said, and if I’m right, then my alarm bells should be going off.
We sang at the end of service yesterday, cannot remember the song, but it made me cry. I was able to think that our church needs to repent and turn to Christ, and this realization in looking all around, I began to pray for our church to open it’s eyes to the truth of what is happening. I’m praying for the pastors, and the other leaders.
I may have written this here already, but maybe not. Our little weekly in house groups report to the church through the internet. We write out our prayer requests, and what happened in the meeting, what we study. We also mark who attended and who was gone. This all goes somewhere, they don’t ask for information without having someone read it. This means the idea, “what’s said in the group stays in the group” is not true and it’s very possible we can be monitored. Ugh.